twilighters-julia

175 As I step onto the scale I hold my breath And pray for small numbers I look as the nurse fiddles with the machine then says: "175 pounds, at risk category" I didn't think it was quite that bad I knew that I had gained weight But to be 175 pounds was shocking I went home and for a while thought I thought I would start running I thought I would start eating right That lasted about a week People may say that I'm more than that number on the scale That beauty comes in all shaped and sizes Don't believe what you see in that magazine, it's not real But when the body beautiful lives right down the hall And everyday you are confro

They say all girls dream of their first time But for me that dream turned quickly into a nightmare With the sound of a zipper as loud as a gunshot I said no, you heard yes Your ears went deaf to my pleading cries Didn't hear me beg you My weeping turned to silence You did what you wanted I said no, you said I meant yes Said that I wanted it Wanted to be pushed down to the rough concrete ground To let go of my innocence surrounded by dirt and trash In a dark ally in the dead of the night I wanted to be left there, cloths ripped, body bloody Having lived though your attack We need to stop telling women not to get raped, and sta

Death It's a peculiar thing Someone being there one moment, then the next gone No light in their eyes no breath in their lungs Life suddenly gone from their bodies Till it's just a shell, no longer harboring a person But how fast does life go, does it just blink out As quickly as you turn off a light Or does it seep slowly out

Don't play with fire Cause sometimes it burns Deceptive lights Masquerading as warmth and safety But the dancing flames lure in their victims Looking for solstice in the red white heat Stay calm and keep away Become too confident and find yourself knocked back

All alone In house filled with people All alone when surrounded by family Little sisters are no help Harboring a resentment to the "favorite" Hating me because our parents go easier on me Only because they don't notice me All the attention goes to them Big sister had to leave Gone to get her higher education Gotta live the good life Make mom and dad proud Leaves me alone Alone in this big house full of people Waiting for my turn to pack up and leave Never look back

Pop a pill, end the madness End the rollercoaster that I'm on With the amazing highs only to be fallowed by the crash and burn of the lows They say that this pill will level me Will end the plummeting lows that suck me into a black hole of depression But what if without the lows I can't get the highs? What if this pill this medication causes me to feel the only thing worse then the lows makes me feel apathetic? And what if the pill does nothing, for what they tell me it can do seems like a lot of hope and trust to place in a small pill And after all they say that drugs are bad, so what makes this one good? What makes this one any be

Family Family- a group of people living together, who can depend on each other and form a bond Well this "family" is a pathetic excuse, a joke! We live together yes, but depend on each other, or form a bond? Yeah right! This house that we pretend is a home, is just a stage where we perform our show Acting the parts that we were assigned, the perfect family, that's our role But all it is, is a masquerade with too many cracks  and our acting isn't nearly good enough to cover them Parents who consume in a week enough beers to fill three recycling bins! And when friends see I have to explain them away, "they're not alcoholics!"

 "AHHHHH! Why is this so hard?" It was Gilberts birthday today and Lovino wanted to do something special for the albino. They had been going out for six months now and it was the first time that Lovino had ever gotten him a present. Currently he was at the mall trying to find him the perfect present. "Damn it! Why does that bastard have to be so fucking hard to shop for! Why can't he be as easy as Feli or Antonio?" It was the eighth store he's entered and he still couldn't find something for Gilbert.  He decides that it was time to go home, and he would figure something out once he was there. On the car ride home from the mall h

 Dell saw her walking up to him, and he had to struggle not to break out into a wide grin; his jaw almost dropped when she sat down next to him on the bench, which could have been very bad since he was currently smoking a cigarette. She had her cell phone out, as always, the blond girl couldn't seem to go a minute without texting someone on that phone of hers. He needed to tell her how he felt but he couldn't get the words out of his mouth, he began to feel depressed when suddenly an idea struck him. He grabbed for his own cell phone and began to type his message, when he was finished he looked over it and slowly pushed the send button. He co